It’s been a while since I last posted here. I think about my blog quite often. I kept telling myself, “Tomorrow I’ll post.” Well, tomorrow is finally here. I decided to share a writing I wrote back on October 20. 2020. It was a night where I just took a pen and paper and wrote … More October 20, 2020
Whenever I share with someone that I have OCD, I usually get asked what are some of the rituals I do. Without fail, I always blank out. I can’t even think of one!!! Then later on when I’m alone they all come rushing in. Most of my rituals are “mental rituals”. What does this mean? … More OCD and Praying.
This cloud of sadness is an empty feeling that keeps the what-ifs alive. This cloud is filled with a ‘sense’ of going nowhere. It’s a cloud where all my guilt from my trauma lives. The guilt that makes me feel that I’m probably not destined for happiness. Probably not destined for the marriage and children … More The Cloud.
Writing this blog has been challenging me to try and break out of my fears of the stigma that can possibly come from you; my readers. I struggle with worrying if I said the right thing. What are they going to think about me? I have family and friends who are reading this, what if they change their views … More My Thoughts.
I thought I would share my experience with psychiatric medications. I had been in and out talk therapy for about 5 years before I finally decided to try psychiatric medications. The stigma I had for myself for even thinking of trying medication was a struggle. One thing I will start off by saying is, I … More Medication.
I have a little “ME” in me. She’s a younger version. A younger me. She comes out in so many different ways and different times – for various reasons. This “younger inner child” concept is very hard for me to understand. This is something that has come up in therapy for a while but I’ve … More Younger Self.
This is another strategy I have learned in therapy. The strategies I’ve learned, I often use them together. For example, as I do the Grounding. exercise, I do this butterfly hug. To do the butterfly hug I start by crossing my hands on my chest as I’m about to hug myself. (They say to have … More Butterfly Hug.
I want to share a strategy I’ve learned through therapy. This has helped me during times of anxiety and disassociation. The following exercise is considered a ‘grounding‘ exercise. The purpose is to tell my brain and my body where we are and that we are safe. My therapist says it’s a mindfulness strategy. I use … More Grounding.
“Another definition, presented by Steinberg and Schnall (2001), defines dissociation as “an adaptive defense in response to high stress or trauma characterized by memory loss and a sense of disconnection from oneself or one’s surroundings.” Pollock, B. L. A. (2015, April 29). The Brain in Defense Mode: How Dissociation Helps Us Survive. Retrieved August 6, … More Disassociation.
I deep cleaned my fridge the other night. It was 10:30 pm and it started with wanting to clear out the leftover foods. Then I realized the entire fridge wasn’t organized. There was no rhyme or reason to the items in there. I started organizing it in a way that “makes sense”. Then I noticed … More Deep Cleaned.
OCD Ramblings 