October 20, 2020

It’s been a while since I last posted here. I think about my blog quite often. I kept telling myself, “Tomorrow I’ll post.” Well, tomorrow is finally here. I decided to share a writing I wrote back on October 20. 2020. It was a night where I just took a pen and paper and wrote … More October 20, 2020

The Cloud.

This cloud of sadness is an empty feeling that keeps the what-ifs alive. This cloud is filled with a ‘sense’ of going nowhere. It’s a cloud where all my guilt from my trauma lives. The guilt that makes me feel that I’m probably not destined for happiness. Probably not destined for the marriage and children … More The Cloud.

Medication.

I thought I would share my experience with psychiatric medications. I had been in and out talk therapy for about 5 years before I finally decided to try psychiatric medications. The stigma I had for myself for even thinking of trying medication was a struggle. One thing I will start off by saying is, I … More Medication.

Butterfly Hug.

This is another strategy I have learned in therapy. The strategies I’ve learned, I often use them together. For example, as I do the Grounding. exercise, I do this butterfly hug. To do the butterfly hug I start by crossing my hands on my chest as I’m about to hug myself. (They say to have … More Butterfly Hug.

Diagnoses.

All of these diagnoses connect. One is there because of the other. My PTSD consists of triggers. My triggers affect my Anxiety. My Anxiety will then trigger my OCD. This will repeat until it’s so exhausting and something happens that I can’t handle and BAM! Depression has joined the party.    I remember speaking with my … More Diagnoses.

PTSD.

Here’s the story of how I stumbled upon the diagnosis of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I was moving into a new place that didn’t allow animals and I simply can’t be without my dog, Dusty. I’ve had him for 6 years and he is as much as my emotional support animal as I am his … More PTSD.

What do you mean, OCD?

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is an anxiety disorder in which time people have recurring, unwanted thoughts, ideas or sensations (obsessions) that make them feel driven to do something repetitively (compulsions) What Is Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder? (2017, July). Retrieved May 14, 2020, from https://www.psychiatry.org/patients-families/ocd/what-is-obsessive-compulsive-disorder When my therapist mentioned a possible diagnosis of OCD I felt two things. Relieved that … More What do you mean, OCD?