OCD and Praying.

Whenever I share with someone that I have OCD, I usually get asked what are some of the rituals I do. Without fail, I always blank out. I can’t even think of one!!! Then later on when I’m alone they all come rushing in. Most of my rituals are “mental rituals”. What does this mean? … More OCD and Praying.

The Cloud.

This cloud of sadness is an empty feeling that keeps the what-ifs alive. This cloud is filled with a ‘sense’ of going nowhere. It’s a cloud where all my guilt from my trauma lives. The guilt that makes me feel that I’m probably not destined for happiness. Probably not destined for the marriage and children … More The Cloud.

My Thoughts.

Writing this blog has been challenging me to try and break out of my fears of the stigma that can possibly come from you; my readers. I struggle with worrying if I said the right thing. What are they going to think about me? I have family and friends who are reading this, what if they change their views … More My Thoughts.

Disassociation.

“Another definition, presented by Steinberg and Schnall (2001), defines dissociation as “an adaptive defense in response to high stress or trauma characterized by memory loss and a sense of disconnection from oneself or one’s surroundings.” Pollock, B. L. A. (2015, April 29). The Brain in Defense Mode: How Dissociation Helps Us Survive. Retrieved August 6, … More Disassociation.

Deep Cleaned.

I deep cleaned my fridge the other night. It was 10:30 pm and it started with wanting to clear out the leftover foods. Then I realized the entire fridge wasn’t organized. There was no rhyme or reason to the items in there. I started organizing it in a way that “makes sense”. Then I noticed … More Deep Cleaned.

Diagnoses.

All of these diagnoses connect. One is there because of the other. My PTSD consists of triggers. My triggers affect my Anxiety. My Anxiety will then trigger my OCD. This will repeat until it’s so exhausting and something happens that I can’t handle and BAM! Depression has joined the party.    I remember speaking with my … More Diagnoses.

What do you mean, OCD?

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is an anxiety disorder in which time people have recurring, unwanted thoughts, ideas or sensations (obsessions) that make them feel driven to do something repetitively (compulsions) What Is Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder? (2017, July). Retrieved May 14, 2020, from https://www.psychiatry.org/patients-families/ocd/what-is-obsessive-compulsive-disorder When my therapist mentioned a possible diagnosis of OCD I felt two things. Relieved that … More What do you mean, OCD?

Mental Health.

“Evidence indicates that the absence of mental illness does not imply the presence of mental health, and the absence of mental health does not imply the presence of mental illness” (Keyes, 2007, p 100) Keyes, C.L.M. (2007). Promoting and protecting mental health as flourishing: A complementary strategy for improving national mental health. American Psychologist, 62, 95-108. When … More Mental Health.

Rambling.

What is rambling? Well, one of the definitions in the dictionary says, “to talk at length without sticking to a topic or getting to a point”. That pretty much sums up what I do – CONSTANTLY ! I can start a conversation with you and in a matter of minutes I have had about 5 … More Rambling.